It has been a very, very, very....long time since I jot down any thoughts, memories, experiences or even adventures here...wow, it has been nearly 2 years... okay, how shall I begin then...hmmm.. I guess it would be best if I arrange my sequence of events chronologically then....
13.10.2009 : Engagement date!!!!
Yup, I've got engaged!!! The girl who never really believed in marriage is now going to settle down. I'm not surprised when there's countless people, from all walks of life, came to me and told me "FINALLY". Honestly, what does that even mean? You know, for a society who claims to be proper, polite, tight-lipped and all, we are actually a bunch of mean people...
Now let's recap... so, what's wrong with getting married late??? I wonder too, when exactly is late?? There are lots of news in the paper that some even got married when they are over 100s...so, when exactly is late?? Plus, they are judgemental and really mean... What they don't get is, it is not an easy task to find someone you're comfortable with, let alone good quality man these days...sigh..sigh..
I get all these craps before I announced that I'm getting engaged...whoaaaa...seriously irritating..why can people just be open to thinking that perhaps there are people who are comfortable and satisfied with just themselves...so, respect that please...
Now, I feel a lot better after pouring my irritated thoughts out...hehehe...Let's talk about after getting engaged then...More pressure I guess...from the same people unfortunately...even only after a day being engaged!!!! can you believe these people??? I don't...
A lot of preparation is needed and there's too much details to take care of and the list just keep going on and on and on.....and still going....However, I'm doing all my way and not because i want to please people but sincerely, I want to have a good day without looking like I'm going to explode, i hope..haha
The beauty of getting engaged is overwhelming for me...in a good way, I mean.. I have someone who accepts me the way I truly am, with baggage and all... That's hard to find..I'm surrounded by loving families and close friends..what more to ask in life?? It's really a good feeling....
You know, after going through life's ups and down, I guess I had a big fat share then, now everything in the past really is staying in the past...I really cannot imagine how my life will be in the future and I'm more than happy to see what's in store for me...it's another phase, another adventures, another thrill and excitement, another obstacles and so on...but, it doesn't make me fear the unseen...Hence, being engaged and going to get married are really the most beautiful colour in my life so far... I'm enjoying the comfort, the love, the lust, the desire, the needs and the company, of course...
For my muchacho, I love you...truly..though I didn't say it much, but trust me...it's really THERE!! Muaxzzzzz
xoxo
