2DO list Before I die...

Before I proceed, I would like to make a confession here. I came across a very interesting book to read and it changes my perspectives in life...huhu..that's hard to come by.. It's by Micheal Ogden and Chris Day. I then realised that, hey, I've missed quite a lot these past few years and now it's time to do justice to myself. Hence, I come out with my own list of 2DO things before I die... hmmmm...It's quite a number but I don't mind sharing. It keeps me focus and hope to be a better person from now on..Hope you find your own list mates... Cheers..

My 2Do list before I die..

Look up an old friend (Hani especially)

Plant a tree successfully (the last time was disastrous)

Do absolutely nothing (I'm trying very hard at it..)

Have my own crib (still trying...)

Start exercising (I need more motivation for that..hehe)

Repay my debt to society (do more good and help the RIGHT people)

Have a pet (probably a cat or any tame animal that don't die easily..hehe)

To be a better teacher

Perform live (again...hehe)

Learn to dance (so I don't have the same moves till 80..hehe)

Publish a book or more books and be a great author.

Start a family and have junior me (huhuhu...)

Please my parents so they will feel proud of raising me...

Honeymoon in the Galapagos Islands...(nice...)

Study till I get a PH.D

Overcome my fear (SNAKE!!!!!!)

Take more photos that potray my life in the fab lane...

Make more trustworthy, great friends...so I have great circle of friends till I die..

Travelling to as many countries and explore different cultures and people.

Instill more moral values in myself so I will be a great individual.

Own a few manolo Blahniks...huhu

Start horse riding again..

Not worrying what others think

Appreciate myself and not expect others to do so..

Have a muse (hmmmmm...)

Be more money savvy

Bungee jumping (yowzah!!!)

Scuba diving and enjoy nature

Find out the roots of my biggest, darkest secret.

Errrr...Start voting

Start recycling and use natural resources wisely

Go for medical check-up annually

Read more books (not just chic lit, must be balance)

Start trusting my gut.

Love and be loved

Hang out with family and friends as often as I can

Learn to share

Fall in Love and enjoy the gigling feeling..huhu

Have 'our' song

Open a bookshop

Pay off my loans.

Edit a newspaper

Teach in Africa for a year

Start scriptwriting

witness a birth

Write a will.

Organise all my photo albums

Rewatch my favourite kids' TV show (Blossom)

Smoke a joint in Amsterdam (again...hahaha)

Take a mud bath

Redecorate my home

Try pilates

Bake my own cake...

Take a ride in a helicopter

Wear a wig...(wakakakaka)

Conquer an addiction.....

Donate blood..

Leave money for strangers (probably in library books..)

Swear less often..

Learn sign language

Read a book a week

Know my rights

Have my own library in my own home

Write more poems

Audition for a play

Do body paint

Well, i guess that's all for now since I can't think of more...but trust me, I will. Hope you have a long list too and enjoy fulfilling each one of it. May we all have great, meaningful lives onwards. Cheers..

CAUGHT IN BETWEEN

CAUGHT IN BETWEEN...

YOU WALK INTO MY LIFE,

AND EVERYTHING'S CHANGING,

AT TIMES IT IS FLATTERING,

AT OTHER TIMES, IT IS FALLING.

I'M CAUGHT IN BETWEEN,

BETWEEN THINGS THAT I NEVER ASK FOR,

BUT THE FACT THAT IT IS REALLY HAPPENING,

AND I GOT THE BLAMING.

PUT ME BACK TO REALITY,

WHERE I CAN BREATHE HAPPILY,

WHEN SOMEONE CAN NEVER STOP ME,

FROM ENJOYING REALITY.

DON'T PUT ME BACK IN HISTORY,

ITS PAIN STILL STICKIN' IN ME.

I HAVE FOUGHT FOR MY DIGNITY,

STEAL IT BACK FROM THE ONE WHO'S STOLE IT FROM ME...

DON'T TELL ME YOU GONNA STEAL IT FROM ME,

FOR I KNOW, YOU DON'T OWN ME.

XOXO

SEXILYBLUR79

Beautiful Creature

BEAUTIFUL CREATURE

WHEN YOU STARE,

I FEEL YOUR WONDERFUL EYES,

WHEN YOU SPEAK,

MY HEART BURNS WITH FLAMES,

WHEN YOU TOUCH,

MY BODY REACTS PLEASURELY,

BECAUSE YOU ARE A WONDERFUL CREATURE.

WHEN YOU LAUGH,

MY HEART LAUGHS ALONG,

WHEN YOU SING,

MY HEART IS JUMPING,

WHEN YOU WINK,

I FEEL LIKE FLYING,

BECAUSE YOU ARE A WONDERFUL CREATURE.

WHEN YOU THINK,

MY EYES ARE ADMIRING,

WHEN YOU FEEL,

I FEELL LIKE CLUTCHING,

WHEN YOU ASK,

MY THOUGHTS ARE DREAMING,

ALL BECAUSE YOU ARE A WONDERFUL CREATURE.

XOXO

SEXILYBLUR79

Strong..

STRONG

Strong is abstract,

So subjective and it hurts,

Hard to define and attracts,

It just blurts.

To be strong it takes awhile,

Not to be only take seconds,

Obstacles is the enemy,

The lost of it is scary.

Physical, mental, spiritual and emotional,

Are at stake as far as strength is concerned.

To achieve it takes times,

Once you have it, your life rhymes.

It often comes and goes,

You could never predict the flows,

May it last nor short or long,

You only have to play along.

Sometimes it’s joyful sometimes it’s dreadful,

No choice cause it’s always handful.

Can’t ignore it, can’t even keep it,

Only choice, just cherish it.

May it comes, may it goes,

Life brings it, you will never know.

Be it good, be it bad,

But it is often very sad.

You shall jump, you shall fall,

Usually, it is your downfall.

Let it be, let it live,

For always, it is to be believed.

xoxo
sexilyblur79

Hollow Love..

MY HOLLOW LOVE..

You are always an angel in my life,

You shall rose and build a life,

Forever it takes, forever it last,

For you are so special ever last.

Our love is pure, however stained with sorrow,

It’s always dark for every tomorrow.

Try hard, try smart, try all you might,

For it could never resist your sight.

Be true, be real and be truthful,

Even though your life is too handful.

Could not let go, could not forget,

For God had planned and then we met.

By chance, by fate, by cupid arrow,

My love will grow deeper tomorrow,

Though hard, though rough and even it’s tough,

My heart will beat no matter how rough.

Either run, walk or even crawl,

I could never let my baby fall.

Let fire burns down all hatred,

For there is no guarantee altered.

You are fine and you are noble,

The sweetest being who is also humble.

Proud of you and always do,

For thy never shy to say I do.

Throw me away with all you might,

You could never forget even my sight,

For I am your heart, your heartbeat and soul,

As long as it beats till we grow old.

To have, to be and forever to hold,

Obstacles could never put us on hold.

Till my body rotten and my life stop,

Will love you no matter how hard I will drop

Xoxoxo

Sexilyblur79

Life..

LIFE

Life changes without you looking

The unexpected happens when you least expected

Either when you give up or when you are not yourself

It brings wonders and new beginning

Either you accept or you decline

Changes remains

It tastes bitter at times but

If you appreciate it, it will grow beautifully in you

It will mould you holistically

Be it emotionally or even spiritually

It lingers and brings values

Enhances every inches of you

Life is parallel with changes

Thus, cherish it when it comes

You will be a better person without you knowing

Face it with no regrets

Regrets only pull you down

Draining your energy and spirits

Leave you cripple and hopeless

So chuck it far out of reach, hence your life is worth living.

Xoxoxo

Sexilyblur79

MERDEKA!!!!

First and foremost, Happy 51st Independence Day to our motherland, Malaysia...I got to say that I'm very proud to be Malaysian and non others.. One, for the freedom we get, did not come easy. Second, living in a multiracial country in unity, is far more rewarding than in a foreign land. And thirdly, we are rich with cultures, beliefs, religions, food, people and definitely languages. It's a safe country to live in and may it be safe for our future generations as well.



Everyone is happy to celebrate the national day in every states. Here I am in JB, still hearing fireworks everywhere. I really do enjoy all the privileges that we Malaysians get here. I remember, back then when I was studying overseas, the people are not as colourful as us. We are so used to hearing all sorts of languages in our daily lives and yet we understand each other. We are more than able to switch from one language to the other even though not as fluent, yet understandable. That's the beauty that Malaysia possess and it makes us far more interesting than others..



And here's a thought..Are we taking all these for granted?? It is still a question that lingers in my head. Do we forsake it all without us knowing? Still no answer to that.



Sincerely, I am quite dissapointed lately when I read the newspaper. It tends to portray negative images to our beloved motherland. Sometimes I wonder, why all these people who created havoc in our darling, did not see the peacefulness we are enjoying? Is it Selfishness, greed, money, position, ego or is it just plain ignorance? Or is it just human...



Despite all these mishaps, as truly Malaysian, I would say, we'll get through it as we always do... So Malaysians, have faith!! Cheers..

Baby Blogger...

Hey everyone or for now, anyone..

Well, I heard so much about blogging and many say it's fun so I tried.. How shall I begin this? I guess the best would be to relate about my recent activities.. Here goes, I just had a wonderful holidays but nothing to shout about... It's just a week holiday so I just went 2 Kuala Lumpur to see my muchacho..hehe

Yup, I'm having a long distance relationship. Guess what? Many people say it can't work but here's the simple truth.. if you really put your mind to it and serious about it, then, it'll work. There's no such things as doubts or else. Just plain trust and honesty.

I had a great time in KL and to my surprise, I actually felt like a tourist. Not to be 'ngada-ngada' or what but here's the thing. As I was about to check into a hotel in Bukit Bintang, the guy infront of the reception asked me for my passport!!!! Imagine my shock..ahah...yup..he did ask. Once I cleared things up and freshened up, I went shopping there...BTW, I just love Bintang Walk. Then only it dawned on me on why the guy at the counter was asking me such question... Bukit Bintang was full of tourists, mostly Arabs....no wonder he can't differentiate Malaysians anymore..

It was good to see all kind of races in Malaysia now and we can truly call ourselves multiracial..I was kinda proud of Malaysia for doing so well and now is better known among internationals.. However, i did realised something there. Most Malaysians are just window shopping!!!! The sales are going on and things are dirt cheap. So why is this so? My conclusion is, the RECESSION!!! Malaysian are now being cautious since the rising of the petrol price. No doubt we feel like a tight pang on the face when it rises. Then, all of the sudden all goods prices rise up like nobody's business... I think we Malaysians are far more educated than what others thoughts..

Anyway, enough of the petrol drama... Back 2 my so-called holiday which only revolved around shopping complexes, I had fun in my own country. So, who says shopping is not a good theraphy for girls? The one who says so, definitely need 2 learn more about girls..hehe